CORVALLIS, Ore. — The world knows various Courtney Loves — she's the rocker who growled into the microphone
as the bandleader of "Hole," one-half of the couple who defined grunge, the actress who delivered an award-winning turn in
"The People vs. Larry Flynt" and a tabloid regular.
But Linda Carroll knows Love as the baby daughter who saw angels in the clouds and the 7-year-old who started a letter-writing
campaign to free a zoo-owned bear from his too-small cage.
Carroll knows, too, the Courtney who wished for death when she was denied a Popsicle, who wandered into a field at age
12 and cut her arms until they bled, who declared emancipation from her family at 16 and was off like a shot to the world
beyond.
All of those Courtneys are on display in Carroll's new memoir, "Her Mother's Daughter," (Doubleday, 304 pages), which begins
with Carroll's childhood in San Francisco as the adopted daughter of a distant couple, and ends with her search for her birth
mother, who turned out to be novelist and children's author Paula Fox.
In between, though, there is Courtney. Carroll has led an adventurous life, rich in friends and full of husbands (four)
and children (five). But the book's central struggle is between a young mother and her difficult daughter.
"For the first time in my life, I had a blood relative," Carroll writes of the day Courtney was born. "Even her smell felt
familiar to me. I would pass some of myself on to Courtney, characteristics I would recognize as she grew ... Courtney and
I would be enough for each other."
An exercise in catharsis
Carroll, who has the same blond hair and water-blue eyes as her famous daughter, now lives in Corvallis and works as a
psychotherapist. Her cozily cluttered home is full of family pictures.
But for years, every so often, the phone would shatter the ordinariness of her life and on the other end would be Courtney,
or news of Courtney, Carroll said — she was in rehab, or out again, had lost custody of her daughter or was fighting
to regain it. Sometimes came word that Love had lashed out against her mother, telling journalists that she'd been forced
to live in a chicken coop, or abandoned at a young age.
Carroll said the book was an exercise in catharsis, prompted by her hope that she could help others not to repeat her own
mistakes. "I know the power of hearing other people's stories," she said